August 26, 2024
I've been neglecting my blog. I think it's all part of the ebb and flow of grieving the loss of my husband. Some things that I thought would get easier seem to be more difficult and vice versa. Suffice it to say this is a strange time for me.
I knew yesterday that today might be a problem. Most of my chores are done and what remains can't be accomplished yet as I'm waiting on other people. I like to stay busy and keep up on my chores. If I fall too far behind, I may never catch up.
Having nothing of consequence to do might seem like heaven to a lot of people, but I'm not geared that way. Having to wait for others makes me restless. These are my chores and projects, and I know they don't attach the same importance to my projects as I do. And so we wait.
"Go write," I tell myself, but I know better than to force the words when I'm so focused on other things. Even writing this blog entry is challenging.
Is it unreasonable to attempt to control the ebb and flow of events in my life? Perhaps I should aim for a 50/50 split between managing and just letting the rivers run.
And maybe I should go plop my ass on the old Husqvarna and make a pass through the woods to keep the briers from taking over. Yeah, that might be the best plan to get me rolling on the day.
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