November 13, 2025
I gave myself permission to go MIA on the blogs. I was having a difficult time keeping up with everything and I finally just yelled STOP. Stop.
So I stopped for a little while. Do you know how difficult that was to do? I'm the generation who listened to Helen Reddy proclaim, "I am woman, hear me roar!" The thing is, I wasn't roaring. I was spinning my wheels. So I stopped.
It was time to do something different so I made some videos. Yea, me! Go check them out to see me gardening, riding around on the tractor, using a chainsaw, and other real-life country pursuits. I didn't do anything special, I just did my day. I'll probably do more videos so that some day in the distant future I can show the old codgers in the nursing home that I really did all these things.
Giving myself permission to stop did come with a price. I have three manuscripts that remain unfinished. I reminded myself that in the beginning, I did not set out to be a published author. I set out to write a book, which I did. That was my goal - write a book. Somewhere along the line my priorities shifted and I tried to please my mother and my husband. But did I please myself? Yes, I did, at least for a while. Now I'm reflecting back on the years to see them in a clearer light.
I think I need to give myself permission to once again be a writer. I think my years as a caregiver to my stepfather, to my mother, to my husband took a huge toll on my emotional health. Then I needed to go through the beginning stages of grief, and grieving doesn't end. It changes, but it's always there.
So many seasons have passed in my life, and there are many more to come. I hope I'm ready because they will come whether they are welcome or not.
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