Thursday, November 28, 2024

Thanksgiving 2024 - my first as a widow


November 28, 2024

Being it's the 28th of the month, this day is the latest day of the month on which Thanksgiving can fall. That's your trivia for the day. 

This is the first Thanksgiving since Ron passed. We had reached the point where time and his declining health brought a quiet to our holidays. Our parents were gone, in one fashion or another, and it was difficult for him to navigate someone else's home. We fixed our Thanksgiving dinner and ate when it was ready. No deadlines. No stress. Just us. And we liked it. 

I'm going to his sister's house in just a few hours. It will be filled with her blended family and it will be noisy. It's raining, but I'll park well below her driveway so I can make a speedy getaway. I appreciate being included as part of her family, but it will be very hard to be there without Ron. 

But I think of the milestones already passed. I've been sleeping alone for over a year already. He'd stopped sleeping in the bed because when he laid down, he coughed too much. His recliner was more comfortable. It's been a year since we knew something was seriously wrong and his last journey began its slow walk to the inevitable conclusion we all will face. 

The family holidays will never look the same to me. It's the way of life, but I don't have to like it. I'm grateful not to have been forgotten and yet I know that day will come. 

Seven years ago I penned a poem on Thanksgiving. Here's the link if you want to view it. We never know the future, and we can only view the past through an unchangeable lens. 

I miss Ron but he is forever with me. My life is forever changed, but I still believe it's a good life and every day is both adventure and gift.  

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KC Kendricks
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Thursday, November 7, 2024

Being busy is fine, but this is ridiculous!

November 7, 2024


Whewww. Taking care of my little homestead on my own is proving to be time consuming. I've been in autumn leaf hell for the past several weeks. It's me against them, and they are winning! If I didn't keep after the areas where there is grass, my entire place would be carpeted like the wooded areas. I won't mess with the wooded areas, though. The fallen leaves will feed the trees they came from, supplying nitrogen back to the soil. The leaves I chop up with mower do the same thing for the grass only faster for being cut up in smaller pieces. 

Yesterday, my cousin changed the oil in the John Deere 1023. Earlier in the week, we began to split firewood for 2025-26. That will be an ongoing project until what we have available to split is stacked. The chimney sweep has been here, and I've filled the firewood racks just inside the basement door. 

I think the fall chores are winding down. You'll note I've said nothing about getting any writing down. Heck, I haven't even had time and energy to blog and keep Between the Keys up-to-date.

And let's toss the fall time change in there. Yeah, that's fun. I'd much rather have the daylight in the afternoon. It's difficult to work in the dark. 

I tell myself I won't get any writing done if I don't sit at the computer and open the file. This is a true thing. If I'd open the file and leave it up, I'd be more likely to work on it throughout the day. Should I resolve to do better? Or should I acknowledge that Ron's death has affected me on such a deep level I have no enthusiasm for anything other than those things necessary to live through the coming winter? 

Medicating myself is not the answer. My mother suffers from Alzheimer's Disease. She is the only person I know of in our family to fall victim to this malady. How is this possible? I don't know. What I do know is she took anti-depressants for years. I will not. I will plow forward as best I can at this time in my life. 

I knew this first year would be a time of adjustment. I just didn't expect I would be so completely swamped by autumn leaves. 

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KC Kendricks
My home on the web- Between the Keys: 
http://kckendricks.blogspot.com
Visit my bookshelf at: 
https://kckendricks.blogspot.com/p/bookshelf.html

Social media links:
Snips and clips on my YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@KCKendricks
Life through the eyes of my black Lab, Greenbrier Smokey Deuce: deucesday.blogspot.com
My country life at The Hideaway/Holly Tree Manor: hollytreemanor.blogspot.com


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