Thursday, November 28, 2024

Thanksgiving 2024 - my first as a widow


November 28, 2024

Being it's the 28th of the month, this day is the latest day of the month on which Thanksgiving can fall. That's your trivia for the day. 

This is the first Thanksgiving since Ron passed. We had reached the point where time and his declining health brought a quiet to our holidays. Our parents were gone, in one fashion or another, and it was difficult for him to navigate someone else's home. We fixed our Thanksgiving dinner and ate when it was ready. No deadlines. No stress. Just us. And we liked it. 

I'm going to his sister's house in just a few hours. It will be filled with her blended family and it will be noisy. It's raining, but I'll park well below her driveway so I can make a speedy getaway. I appreciate being included as part of her family, but it will be very hard to be there without Ron. 

But I think of the milestones already passed. I've been sleeping alone for over a year already. He'd stopped sleeping in the bed because when he laid down, he coughed too much. His recliner was more comfortable. It's been a year since we knew something was seriously wrong and his last journey began its slow walk to the inevitable conclusion we all will face. 

The family holidays will never look the same to me. It's the way of life, but I don't have to like it. I'm grateful not to have been forgotten and yet I know that day will come. 

Seven years ago I penned a poem on Thanksgiving. Here's the link if you want to view it. We never know the future, and we can only view the past through an unchangeable lens. 

I miss Ron but he is forever with me. My life is forever changed, but I still believe it's a good life and every day is both adventure and gift.  

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KC Kendricks
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